But, I have a major dillema... what u say? I am speeding up the demise of my kidney {& my heart} with {brutal, live & world-wide broadcasted honesty here} chemical dependancy. Drug of choice? Opiods. Why? They r better than Xanax for anxiety. Leaps & bounds more effective than IBUProfin for pain [even tylenol]. Last longer than certain schedule 1 uppers, per dose. Plus, detox is 2 maybe 3 days. There really is a myriad of excuses I could give. Literally. Alas, they ARE simply excuses in the end.
Now, don't get me wrong. I'm admitting I have a problem. #1. Know it is speeding up MY demise & I want nothing more than to be free from these,
It all started when I was 19. Purple specks appeared on my legs & arms in conjunction with adema & pain. That is right about the time I started bruising, perfusely. I had simple blood work done, full CBC panel, the 9. Turned out I am anemic. However, that did not explain the speckles! So, on 2 another Doctor, after it did not relent after a year. After much Dr. "Shopping" until a Physicians Assistant diagnosed me from an out d8ed medical text book. HSP [heonoch schenlins Purpura], an auto-immune disease that [I later found out, when it was TOO LATE @ that!] Causes the persons immune system to attack the kidneys. By the time I was 23, I was, unknown to me [no symptoms what so ever] I was in full Renal [kidney] failure. At a mere 17% function. I had to go on dialysis until I was matched with a new kidney.
